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You're a smart dude Baker, but you suffer from a complex that was instantiated in you by all the people that have kissed your ass over your inventions. You think that you matter....
I love this whole post and that's what I was hoping you would say to me, maybe 2 or 3 months ago.
You're a smart dude Baker, but you suffer from a complex that was instantiated in you by all the people that have kissed your ass over your inventions. You think that you matter. You also think that what you say matters. You think this to a degree that has you espousing your wisdom to people with a hell of a lot more experience in this world than you.
I say this with no ill regard. You come off as a "know-it-all" with a VOCABULARY to back it up and enough theory to make it sound legit. I don't need you to explain life to me, Baker. I am a fully grown man that has been on his own since I was 16. I beat a 10+ year alcohol addiction 9 years ago, with NO help, none. No fuckin AA, books, tapes, whatever. Beat it for real too, we could go have a beer right now and it's not gonna spiral into my past. It's just a beer and it has no power over me. I use this truth as an example that no matter how low I get and no matter how overcome and consumed I am with something - I will prevail.
You do not have the power to affect me to any focus-worthy degree. Nor the experience to be explaining life to me. K? When you realize that you're kinda like a smart kid trying to tell the grown-ups what to do (to me), you will realize what a waste your dissertations are.
I know that sounds horrible - patronizing fully grown men deserves no other response. You should work on that. All you have to realize is 3 things:
1) Baker is the only one that cares what Baker has to say
2) Just because you maybe know something, doesn't mean you have to explain it. (or that you are even right)
3) Baker is nobody and has no business expecting anything from anyone or holding anyone to any standards
When you realize that, you will go from being annoying to being a man. No man is an island, you think you're a fucking resort. Get over it. I tell you this because I used to be you. Some c.ocky know-it-all that had all the answers for how people should be. It's incredibly fucking annoying and the worst possible way to ever get your point across.
You will grow. Let's see if you will start now, or attempt to explain to me the equivalent of "blah blah blah ramble ramble ramble" in a college vocabulary. Don't get me wrong, I think you are brilliant, you just need to STFU sometimes.
I'll admit the spirit of what you said is well received, but the actuality of it is something that subtracts from me. It only took me 38 years to realize it.
There is an implicit question in there. I only know the answer for me.
Becoming the best you can be doesn't mean avoiding your humanity. Quite the opposite, it means embracing it as who you are.
For me, I do things, I share things, I communicate, I think. I make mistakes, I am sometimes in error. I am sometimes funny, and sometimes I simply screw up. And I'm always learning.
That's me. And I hold no one to a higher standard than that. I'm not afraid of who I am, nor am I afraid of who other people are and I take it all at face value and with a smile.
For instance, I've probably defended about every forum troll who walked in here or every jerk who posted here, not because I think that kind of behavior is right but because maybe they have something to say. And if not, it never hurts to hear someone out.
Focus is putting your foot on the gas pedal, and never looking back. Never second-guessing. Do the best you can, be productive as you can be and don't sweat the small stuff. There is always time to reminiscence or second-guess yourself tomorrow, and that is a waste of time for tomorrow. Humans are good are overthinking things to the point of obsession but the key is: Don't Think. Decide what you want. Then do.
Do your best today, concentrate on what you want --- not on what you don't want. Your focus determines what happens, make sure it is on the positive.
Who cares what some random dude on the internet says? Do you get it? If you get distracted by that, what other petty side quests are going to separate you from your goals?
Not to "serious" it up or anything but, long before I read this:
Protip: You forgot to say "F*ck you!"
I had removed every rude curse word, all of the garbage. I'll admit the spirit of what you said is well received, but the actuality of it is something that subtracts from me. It only took me 38 years to realize it.
I mean, of course, Fuck you and you never have to forget that , but I'm moving on, bro.
I'm not distracted, I'm burnt. I need to go to Disneyland or something. That's why I pounded this site for the last 2 days. I don't give a fuck what x+t is...fuck x and t and any other letter that has a problem with it. lol.
Baker? I am kicking ass. This site doesn't have the power to hold me back, it's just a site. It can only do what it was programmed to, and I doubt vB programmed in "holding people back".
I hold me back. I've been programming "non-stop" for... I don't even know. I get burned out, my mind needs an escape and it latches on to something trivial. I then mistake "TAKE A BREAK!" for inability to overcome distraction. I become frustrated.
I'm not distracted, I'm burnt. I need to go to Disneyland or something. That's why I pounded this site for the last 2 days. I really don't care what x+t is! Damn to Hell x and t, along with any other letter that has a problem with it.
Understand?
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I have penned quite a library of scripts in a fairly short time. I haven't lost the scope of my code in my reprieve and chances are high that no one is going to understand how I took a break - as I throw another 50 hours into it over the course of the next few days.
It's like being in prison, sometimes.
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@"I'm sorry" - You can go back to Sesame Street with that "feelings" crap. In actuality, this was all so yesterday and trivial. I'm not worried about it, man.
Last edited by MadGypsy; 05-05-2013, 10:39 PM.
Reason: I'm practicin' Engliish.
Thank you for saying that, I was just about to read your words with a closed mind and call you a troll.
We are very different types of people, but I've seen how you've helped people and the intricate details in the efforts in your work.
I would like to say that I am sorry for any grief that it appears I have given you; I meant them all in good faith.
(i.e. the one post where you said this site was holding you back, well if that is true screw this site and go conquer the world. I was trying to give you a jolt of anger if you were in a rut where you got so upset you went with your gut instinct and went out and kicked some ass.)
Sometimes things are lost in communication. I expect the best from myself and I try to promote others to expect the best from themselves. But we aren't all the same and communication gaps can enter the mix where I misjudge the perception of what I am trying to say. Shorter version: I'm sorry.
^^yeah, you're probably right, but I still like my idea. When it all boils down to it, we are talking about a number stored in a database column. vB keeps it simple and makes the number something that really has no value (What is a good reputation? What is the best reputation? How does my reputation effect other reputations when I vote?). I think a reputation could and should be more interactive. Also, (ex) I have a reputation of 28 (points) which is a rep of 4...what does that even mean? The numbers are so mysterious that the rep system is practically useless.
PS>
Read this with an open mind --- it looks trolly, but actually it explains the dilemma of social progress:
Thank you for saying that, I was just about to read your words with a closed mind and call you a troll.
People with ideas that others really need to hear are not initially viewed as popular because their ideas challenge the status quo or the existing power structure.
p.s. It is no small irony that initially QuakeOne.com was one of these disruptions and it was viewed as such from about 6 different angles. The double irony is that is it also "won" and the opposing points of view lost ... and lost badly (and QuakeOne.com was wildly popular in being a disruption to the status quo).
Beyond that though, what is the scale for highest and lowest reputation? There has to be an algorithm that has a God status and a Devil Status, both of these being the extremes, with a real math problem that can determine how close you really are to either.
Read this with an open mind --- it looks trolly, but actually it explains the dilemma of social progress:
But the short version is that your reasoning is completely invalid because you propose a system in which other humans in the status quo to subjectively decide what is true and what is not true. Which is a crock of shit in every and all formulations. Henry Ford said his customers --- if left to their own devices --- would want a faster horse. So any variation of any system you would propose would penalize innovation that has strong friction against social norms.
The problem is, all far forward future advances do, in fact, strongly fly in the face of social norms. Some are true while others are false, but these cannot be adequately seen in context of the present, only within a future context.
And all methodology to predict the future or even something as simple as the stock market or social trends fail. The future is only obvious in hindsight, it is never obvious from the present.
i.e. George Washington was hated in his time from the perspective of social norms and so were modern civil rights leaders. No system regardless of the complexity can adequately discern between disruption or a new emerging paradigm. And trying to do so only measures the disruption, not the underlying reasons and whether or not they are valid.
This is the paradox. Any ideas you would have could only be a good measurement of the present. Even if the present sucks from other form of measurement.
In real life, if someone disagrees with you or dislikes you, is that something that you are just forced to accept? Sometimes it can be, but often you can manage your reputation in real life, because your reputation is far more complex than someone punching you in the face or handing you flowers...and those are the only options.
People change their mind, can be persuaded, threatened, bought..
Beyond that though, what is the scale for highest and lowest reputation? There has to be an algorithm that has a God status and a Devil Status, both of these being the extremes, with a real math problem that can determine how close you really are to either. Say (humor me) God is perfect and that equals 1 million. No one will ever be that, but from that end things can be considered as to where someone actually is, and that individual should possess the power to persuade others regarding their reputation. The ability to change "opinion" votes would be necessary. The reputation number should also be influenced by the reputation of the voter. If someone with the reputation of "NOBODY" reps you up/down that should count very very little. How someone votes should also effect their reputation. If I do nothing but down vote people, my reputation should fall, as I am very negative. In that lies another issue. Not everyone wants a good reputation, so bad reputations should carry high negative numbers that count as high numbers for evil. 0 would be like just being born.
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