I have been thinking a lot lately about many of things. One thing in particular, is how I spend my time and what I actually get accomplished with it. I'm not satisfied with the speed or amount of my accomplishments. I recently quit my clan due to this. Here it is 3 weeks later and I haven't looked back. Unfortunately, it turned into one of those situations where you "quit drinking to start smoking".
I left my clan, just to end up here twice as much. That is essentially - "no change at all". I have come to realize that I am not a responsible individual. Responsible people balance their time between their responsibilities, goals and useless recreation. I have the responsibilities part aced and fail miserably at the goals part. This has to change, now.
I am wasting my life on a forum that revolves around a game that I don't give a fuck about. I'm never going to be an accomplished video game developer. I am a web/flash programmer. I have major skills and for some reason I can't focus on them, but it is not really "some reason". This site is the reason.
I have friends here and I love to help them with their art. I also love to share my art. Regrettably, all I am really doing is wasting my time and pushing the completion of my own goals further and further back. This has to change, now.
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I'm not trying to have some crybaby goodbye thread. I am not "disappointed" or "fed-up" with anything or anyone, but myself. I currently suck so bad that I can't even guarantee that I won't be right back here tomorrow, curious as to what's going on. This is a problem. I have to at least attempt to rectify that problem.
All that being said, I'm gonna go away for a while. I have friends here that deserve better than for me to just flake out and leave without explanation and that's really the only reason I am posting this, at all.
In contrast, how do I leave my friends period? "Nice knowing you, see you around"..that's bullshit. That's not me. So, I will give all of you my phone number and you are more than welcome to call me and keep in touch (if we are friends). Even this has it's neglected elements though, cause sometimes I just decided that IDGAF about a phone and decide not to pay the bill until I feel like calling someone (lol). All I can say about that is, try back later on in the month or year or something.
Anyway, I have shit I want to accomplish and it's time that I focus ALL of my time and effort on it. Wish me luck and strength to stay focused.
Michael
504 247 2256
PS> Imma pay my bill tomorrow before I leave for work.
PPS> If you aren't in my friendslist here, please do not bother me. Be grown up and realize that just because you now know my number, it doesn't mean you should call it. I would respect your number, respect mine.
peace.
I left my clan, just to end up here twice as much. That is essentially - "no change at all". I have come to realize that I am not a responsible individual. Responsible people balance their time between their responsibilities, goals and useless recreation. I have the responsibilities part aced and fail miserably at the goals part. This has to change, now.
I am wasting my life on a forum that revolves around a game that I don't give a fuck about. I'm never going to be an accomplished video game developer. I am a web/flash programmer. I have major skills and for some reason I can't focus on them, but it is not really "some reason". This site is the reason.
I have friends here and I love to help them with their art. I also love to share my art. Regrettably, all I am really doing is wasting my time and pushing the completion of my own goals further and further back. This has to change, now.
---
I'm not trying to have some crybaby goodbye thread. I am not "disappointed" or "fed-up" with anything or anyone, but myself. I currently suck so bad that I can't even guarantee that I won't be right back here tomorrow, curious as to what's going on. This is a problem. I have to at least attempt to rectify that problem.
All that being said, I'm gonna go away for a while. I have friends here that deserve better than for me to just flake out and leave without explanation and that's really the only reason I am posting this, at all.
In contrast, how do I leave my friends period? "Nice knowing you, see you around"..that's bullshit. That's not me. So, I will give all of you my phone number and you are more than welcome to call me and keep in touch (if we are friends). Even this has it's neglected elements though, cause sometimes I just decided that IDGAF about a phone and decide not to pay the bill until I feel like calling someone (lol). All I can say about that is, try back later on in the month or year or something.
Anyway, I have shit I want to accomplish and it's time that I focus ALL of my time and effort on it. Wish me luck and strength to stay focused.
Michael
504 247 2256
PS> Imma pay my bill tomorrow before I leave for work.
PPS> If you aren't in my friendslist here, please do not bother me. Be grown up and realize that just because you now know my number, it doesn't mean you should call it. I would respect your number, respect mine.
peace.
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