Grrrr...bah!

[Baker]

As far as the Anubis part goes - "you're" technically fucking with my family cause, that's my cousin.

You mean your cousiin's cousin, which is yourself. So why not just man up as your New Years resolution and let the past be the past.

I fought for your unban.

I have always thought this forum should be a free speech zone. And since this is buried in the bowels of the thread few will read, I thought the fact that a certain person who had moderator threatening you in a public forum was not cool. That is not how moderation should be done.

However, if you prefer to dwell on my handling of the Anubis situation, you'd be better off banging your head against a brick wall. I'm one of the most stubborn son-of-a-bitches on the planet.

But I'm a stubborn son-of-a-bitch for the cause of justice.

And even you know I'm honorable --- and I'm for free speech and American values.

My memory has forgotten all of the past. Last time I checked, we are all human and beyond making mistakes which we all do is the potential to embrace the better man is to see his potential for good.

[Besides, I unadminned weeks ago ]

[MadGypsy]

Hmmm. Racists people and bad day people are hardly equal. I think you are confusing facts of life with not paying attention to any of the facts. With that I am done discussing this. My intention was not to rehash anything. I just wanted to be real clear that I don't give a fuck what people here think they know about my life, or me (ex whether or not I have a GF). You could tell me I should screw myself in the butt more often in order to sleep. Which implies all kinds of things. You'd just be revealing your level (in such a case) it wouldn't affect me at all.

As far as the Anubis part goes - "you're" technically fucking with my family cause, that's my cousin. And I do care about that! Trying to say one person is another due to a matching ip address is retarded. Even spike told y'all this and he doesn't even like me. If my landlady which is on the same PSP and not 20 feet from me signed up here, she would have the same IP. So, now a 60+ year old black lady is MadGypsy, too? MadMabel LMAO!

We have a running joke over here that I am everywhere and everyone. It's presented with great paranoia and it's really funny. You guys would feel really foolish if you were here. You would realize that these people are simply at my house. Do you have people that come to your house and connect to your internet? Guess what, so do I. Do you really think that I have lived in a city for almost 41 years (2 years in California) and I have no friends or family? I sit at home all alone or some shit? C'mon man! That is in no way realistic. That was only basically true at the port because I didn't belong there and I wasn't trying to draw attention to myself and end up potentially in jail.

As it turns out, the kitchen manager at my job is an old school Quake fan and has an interest in building games. We've been talking about him coming over and me teaching him everything. If he happens to sign up here and log on from my house, is he MadGypsy, too? I'm building a real life team of people. You guys keep pissing me and them off with this crap. There is and has always been ONE MadGypsy. Nobody else can be MadGypsy and MadGypsy will NEVER be anyone else! I am ((One)Mad)Gypsy EVERYWHERE I go! EVERYWHERE! NEVER something else! If I can't be me then fuck being at all! Tell me you know better or doubt me....

[redacted decided you didn't need to know this]

[Mindf!3ldzX]

It's a shame that's the way it works. Everyone's friends until a line is drawn, and that friend is on the other side of that line.

It's just a fact of life. Cobalt learned this not too long ago too. He acted surprised when I informed him I don't consider racist people my friend.

[Syluxguy28O3]

No worries. A lot of what I say is observation, my friend. Being banned from here after after almost 5 years of participation has pretty much shut the door on any of you guys being able to "touch me/get under my skin". I realized I'm not "Good old Gypsy" or the like. I'm expendable and maybe don't even matter, at all. Having ya'll claim every Tom, Dick and Harry is me, really put it in perspective. Every time I see "confirmed MadGypsy" under Anubis's name I wonder what I'm even doung here. Nobody confirmed jack shit other than they completely suck at being a detective.

I'm not whining. I couldn't possibly say something with less emotion.

It's a shame that's the way it works. Everyone's friends until a line is drawn, and that friend is on the other side of that line.

[Mindf!3ldzX]

I have no idea what that means.

Means nothing haha.

[MadGypsy]

I have no idea what that means.

[Mindf!3ldzX]

[MadGypsy]

No worries. A lot of what I say is observation, my friend. Being banned from here after after almost 5 years of participation has pretty much shut the door on any of you guys being able to "touch me/get under my skin". I realized I'm not "Good old Gypsy" or the like. I'm expendable and maybe don't even matter, at all. Having ya'll claim every Tom, Dick and Harry is me, really put it in perspective. Every time I see "confirmed MadGypsy" under Anubis's name I wonder what I'm even doung here. Nobody confirmed jack shit other than they completely suck at being a detective.

I'm not whining. I couldn't possibly say something with less emotion.

[Mindf!3ldzX]

hah, I wasn't trying to imply anything, other than busting a nut would help you sleep better.

weigh what I just wrote ^ there against the colorful wording I used before and it might become more apparent that I was just being discreet.

[MadGypsy]

My last 2 or 3 sleeps I got a lot of hours but, I was aware of everything around me. The wind moves a window pane "wind". The toilet turns on for a second "toilet". The sink drips "Time to buy a gasket". The TV (on vol 2 or 3, ie practically mute) "I hate this commercial". Someone breaks in my house "burglar, meh, I'll just buy new shit." - but all the while basically asleep by all other indicators.

*Of course I'm joking about the burglar one. Well, I'm joking that it happened.

lol@my sig, the ****** is the word s.ucker. I think that's a little extreme on the censorship.

[bluntz]

I also have a hard time shutting down and one of the reasons I drive for a living.It comes in quite handy for the long hours needed for the trade.However I have found a way to shut off the gears that works every time.Since I can't shut down the head ,I found a way to stop fighting it and just go with it,While I am staring at the back of my eye lids I do a Rorschach test on myself of the light blotchs left burned into them.As fast as I can imagine what the shape may be I try to imagine another and another and so on.As your mind starts to spin up faster and faster before you know it the images become a film strip an BOOM your dreaming!
One small side effect though is you will find it may sometimes turn into a lucid dream and leave you awake inside it,but if you just roll with it you will forget it's just a dream.One weird thing about lucid dreaming for me anyway
is not to exert too much control of the dream or you will wake up every time.
Good luck MG and glad to have you back.

[MadGypsy]

@inkshock - I like that idea. First idea that can be achieved without any effort.

[Inkshock]

and then my brain goes "oh, you aren't preoccupied - lets solve EVERYTHING!"

When my brain does that to me, I listen to audio books or some podcasts.

[MadGypsy]

You're the second quaker this week to imply that I don't have a gf.... crazy talk.

I was single for the couple years that I lived in a warehouse in the back of the port. Other than that I don't think I've been single for the whole rest of my adult life.

[wicked_lord]

haha damn, next time it gets that bad, take rosey palm and her 5 friends out for a spin. that might help too haha

Sometimes you have to do it 3 or 4 times, eventually you will fall asleep.